i dont get it.

the other day i was watching dr. phil (i know i know) and the subject was engaged couples who don't belong together. they were cheating on each other and disrespecting each other and generally being awful people. so it makes me wonder why people get themselves into these situations.

i really dont understand. you dont HAVE to be with someone.. and why be with someone who you dont respect/doesnt respect you. is avoiding loneliness really that important that you'd seek happiness with someone who obviously isnt right for you?

on valentines night i was at the bar and a guy was throwing himself at me. he was 38 and married. and in his throwings i asked him, why arent you at home with your wife? he says to me "she's mad at me" its 8PM on valentines day and you're at a bar trying to pick up a 23 yr old, i wonder why she's mad at you.

he said he's been married for 2 years. i feel like that time is still supposed to be spicy and interesting. not to say that if he'd been married for 10 yrs that he should be out kicking it..

but.. all in all i just don't get it.

6 years

this will be my 6th year living in philadelphia. nothing remarkable has happened. sounds like it's time to go!

atlantic city

i'm about to go to atlantic city to meet jon and buy a computer from him. he has a hatchback and we're going to do it in a really shady way.

i havent seen him in over a year but i talk to him every single day. its funny how you can maintain relationships with people, the key is communication and mutual interest. it really doesnt make a difference where the other person is physically or in their own life.

i say this so no one can say anything about me running away from home. :)

i have off of work until wednesday morning. i am unsure as to what to do with myself, a girl can only stand so much daytime tv. i can only watch so many technical school commercials.

i still havent done any xmas shopping.

a resolution or two..

every year i am always sure to make a few resolutions.. i'm always pretty good at keeping them too. I'm sure that if you've known me for a while you can think of a few of them..

so for 08 i'm thinking that i need to work on my organization skills, or lack thereof.
maybe start writing things down.. and actually planning things instead of living by the seat of my pants (believe me its not as exciting as it may sound)

i need need to get a drivers license.. i have a permit.. but the thing is i'm just a really really really terrible driver. i've tried a few times and i am just so uncomfortable with the whole thing. i dont know why. i feel like the driving test wouldnt really have any similarities to what it would really be like on the road so even if i passed, i would still suck at driving and probably die and kill a bunch of people.

i need to work on not being afraid of all of the things that im afraid of.. i dont know how to do that though.

ive got my work cut out for me in 08.

oh yea and i need a passport.

it's been a month

my day to day has been the same. my life is still pretty boring yet unpredictable.

i am sitting here watching a cartoon called "grandma got run over by a reindeer" it started with a savage attack on grandma and is now all flashbacks leading up to the event. its funny how grandma is called grandma at her job and all other walks of her life.

i am going to colorado in a few days. its funny how you can end up going places that you totally would never expect yourself going. like susan marshall not only going to the midwest.. but going in january..

i'm not excited for christmas.. i bought a few gifts for people but the mall is just way too ridiculous for me at this time.. it smells like too many people and impatience.

a toys r us burnt down yesterday.. i wish i was there to save all of the poor defenseless xboxes.

i'll post more :)

small talk

waiting for the bus this morning a woman comes up to me and says 'it's gonna be like this all week'

i have never seen this woman before in my life, and i don't exactly understand why she thinks i would be interested in talking about the weather. even worse, complaining about the weather. its weather. not like there is a typhoon.

she also went along to say to me.. "have you ever considered modeling, you're so... tall"
being tall isn't a compliment. neither is saying that someone should be a model. so all i said to her was "no"

don't talk to strangers.

something quick

i went to karaoke at a new place last night for cash prizes $$ (i tied for 2nd) but i digress..

its funny everytime i grab a microphone somewhere that i've never been how people brace themselves because they think that since i'm black im gonna bust out some whitney houston octaves and whatever else.

i know this because i hear them whispering before i start singing.

jokes on them! :)